Go 50 in your own lane.

As the Covid-19 lock down begins slowly lifting these few weeks, life is returning to a new normal. People leave their houses with masks on, restaurants begin to let in customers (with social distancing measures, of course), and the streets begin to fill with people and vehicles. With these going on outside my bedroom window,... Continue Reading →

Part 2: Nihilistic Existentialism

Something in me changed when I got up early one morning while in quarantine. The rest of the family was asleep as I sauntered into the kitchen to make some coffee. While I gazed blankly at the drops of coffee plopping through the glass filter into the ceramic mug below, I began to cry. "Ah,"... Continue Reading →

Part 1: Existentialistic Nihilism

The funny, or more accurately, contradictory thing about university is it made me realize there is no meaning in life. I've spent all of my schooling years in the country's public education system believing there is one ultimate goal that all humanity share- a life purpose. To put it frankly, since the role of education... Continue Reading →

psychedelic whirlbwirls of youth

I gave it a year I gave myself a year. A year to let the currents of life take me To unexpected mouths of sudden rivers To novel, undiscovered earth I experienced the sweet, sweet euphony of friends’ chortles Like marveling at the breathtaking sight of cherry blossoms for the first time The fragile petals... Continue Reading →

Snippets of happiness in pain

I don't believe time heals everything. Pain accumulates- head being all over the place, mini existential crisis, guys from the past, family and just trying to get my shit together. Time passes, but the pain is still there. It comes back to haunt you, again and again. My experience in counseling sessions last time taught... Continue Reading →

Finding Certainty in Uncertainty

Finally, the long-awaited part of my life has arrived: I am a university freshmen! The past two weeks were full of orientation, camps, making new friends, meeting seniors and professors, having 3am confessions while hungover (not me), and most significant of all- moving into my dormitory. Against the backdrop of change, aka not knowing what... Continue Reading →

Of Love, Life and Self

This week has been a self-discovery and realising big epiphanies of love, of life and myself. With the backdrop of watching ‘Before Sunrise’ and reading ‘City of Girls’, these noteworthy seven days have come full circle. You can say that for the past few months, there is a guy I’ve been closer to. While he... Continue Reading →

Rejection is redirection

‘Dear Claire, we regret to inform you that your scholarship application is unsuccessful.’ This was the reply I received after weeks of waiting. When I received the news, I was not numb, not upset, not disappointed. I was relieved; I was happy. That was when I realised: I’ve been seeking external validation all along and... Continue Reading →

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